the girl

looking back the past, i saw a girl. she was gullible. she believed in love stories with happy endings. she was just that naive because she was simple-minded. to her, the whole world was just that limited space she was living in.

but not anymore. she's now in the world she ever dreamed of. she's in the complex world. much more complicated than her little world back then. somehow..the more complex things she sees or experiences, the more she is confused. she doesn't know what she wants. she is rather disoriented. but she's still living her life like how she used to back then. just that there is a bit of independency and a bit of sweat...

but when the reality starts to sink in slowly, she wonders. she wonders if there would be a slight possible chance for her to go back and become that simple-minded, naive girl she knew.

and when darkness creeps in, she wonders how would she be like for the next few years. there is more complex and 'interesting' world waiting for her. 'one step at a time', she reminds herself all the time. but there is step that once she slips, she would never get herself up and climb again. that's just how the world works. no pain. no game.